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Dress sizes...Hair styles...The moccasin versus the casual chucks...Lipstick & lib-balm. 

: Identities are first defined (usually) by the appearance. Immediately you classify the person before you as---the hipster, the druggie, the lovely, how droll (etc.). These titles do not alter nor transfigure, unless a new impression is to be introduced. These new introductions of character could be confirming as you had supposed, or may be quite the opposite of your guess. To be so blunt in your character and style, that one does not need another lick to confirm your flavor. Rather to feign with multiple alias', for you yourself are lost as to who you are. Here we go, as I [attempt] to address these two dominant parties: of the abrupt, straightforward, and the complex, confused.

To the blatant. You are foreign to me, and at times I am rather envious of your confidence. Now, you could be incredibly true, or rudely and confusingly a liar. The first may be depicted in how sure & positive you are; no hesitation is produced from thee. You know what you desire, despise, merely enjoy, are enticed by, and what to keep clear from.  It seems like a simple life to me; I would not know. This type of manner and culture amazes me. Though for the manipulative liar, I pity you. For while you know, you only know OF it. You thrive for such character, but tis all a pickle. While you may contain a peace in knowing what you are so keen on, the pain in not achieving it..prevails. What a restless culture to live in, and by.

To the fraud, I know you well. We are acquaintances of multiple visits. You may not recognize me, for I have changed multiple times. This lifestyle may be seen as both spontaneous and unsure, for you wish not to dwell on what you lack or need to conquer, you merely do. 

For me, my meetings with you were not based on physique, but on philosophy, and beliefs, and often the morals of society. We are not friends. For I envy the confidence (which you lack) of the blunt, and how fluently dauntless they are. Yet I remain a consistent visitor of the feign. Well, easily seems a bit derogatory, perhaps well0liked is simple enough. Not even that...Tis the mere welcome, and lack of questions. 

Once while out to dinner with some old friends and a bit of family, my friend's father dissected our characters... one by one. His interpretation of me was saddening, and led me to question myself. Lately, I am defined by my spontaneous actions taken, or as the "church hippie". What a bother... to be called mysterious, and not figured out. It did not bother me too bad, & it remains so presently. I should not care of such definitions. For I am a pretender. 

I've constantly been searching for my passion in life. My passions do not truly change, but there are those that I choose to pursue. Nor am I confident which shall be my next prey. Though I CAN be confident in one thing..I am His : 

"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." --Ephesians 2:10

Loco, man. When we are so sinful that God's awesome gift of salvation saves us from all our disgusting and foolish actions, that led us from Him...Even while He is truly blameless, He took the wrath of God... a rage that should have been given to us. And he placed all that weight of judgment on one man, His Son, Jesus.

"For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." --Romans 3:23

With a wonderful purpose. 

"God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in Him we might become the righteousness of God." --Romans 6:18

& I remain sure & confident through Him.

"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me." --Philippians 4:13

"In him and through faith in Him we may approach God with Freedom and confidence."--Ephesians 3:12

"For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many." --Mark 10:45

"This is my prayer & my plea

That You be glorified in me.

Hallelujah, o' Your love

It will forever be enough."

--Daniel Ma

My confidence, and even more, my satisfaction, is in the Lord. For He saved me from death, and has supplied me with joy in glorifying Him, which is all that I can do in return. How mere our response is, yet tis SO very needed, and SO VERY necessary, and deserved.

g'night blogspot. Sleep tight.